if i could just get better...

i was just thinking about what i could do if i just get through this. i could possibly get my best friend back, i could do better in school, i could live a better life, i could be sucessful....i could even live a happy life. i could write about my life and how bad it was and how i turned it all around. i think i should give it another shot. im sure getting better is the main issue i have, when it could solve most of my other problebms. and all ive been focusing on are the ending results of my decisions